I had started dating when I was in high school, but didn’t get involved in the physical aspect of relationships until I was in college. I had heard quite a bit from my friends and read enough on the Internet, though. I kind of knew about the logistics already and when it came to blow jobs – most girls at that age used to express quite a bit of disgust when the topic came up. Most of my friends even went on to say that they would just never, ever try it. I didn’t let all of their opinions jade mine, though…I just thought that I’ll decide how I feel about it when I get there.
I was in my second year of college when I went down on a guy for the first time. I wasn’t ready to have sex at that point, so going down on this guy I had been, um, hooking up with just felt like the natural next step. He was the perfect guy to experiment on, after all – I could just bolt and never see him again if I sucked (no pun intended) at it. He liked it, though – or at least he made it sound like it did. Obviously I had no clue what I was doing, but he guided me through it. What to do with my hands, what to do with my tongue… It was still all very confusing and I felt like I had been thrust into a practical examination of a subject I had never attended class for.
Right after college, I met my current boyfriend. He had a lot more experience than me, but other than feeling a tiny bit insecure on occasion, it didn’t bother me all that much. A month into the relationship we were already sleeping together and it was all going very smoothly. He used to love going down on me – not just like it, or enjoy my reaction to it, actually LOVE. But somehow, maybe because I was still getting used to having sex, I had completely forgotten that maybe I should be returning the favour too. And he never even asked or hinted at it!
One day, while we were on a vacation and having an absolutely amazing time (we barely even left the room for meals, just so you know what I’m talking about!) I just felt like going for it. And so I did. He was definitely surprised, to say the least. His jaw would have dropped to the floor – if he hadn’t been lying down at the time. I still hadn’t perfected the art, of course. Nowhere close. But the confidence just kind of helped me through it and his reaction just made me want to keep going. Suddenly the task had become exciting and something adventurous and not like a practical examination at all.
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Since that day, though, giving a blow job has become my favourite thing. To be able to render a guy speechless in a split-second is too much of high for me not to love it! I still don’t go down on him as much as he goes down on me, though – I reserve it for special occasions. When we’re on vacation, on his birthday, when he’s really, really exhausted (and that doesn’t happen often when he has me next to him) and such…
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But, of course, it’s not all pleasant! What with having to deal with the gag reflex and all that. And there might be some other unpleasant aspects too, but it’s really not as bad as some girls make it seem! I’ll even go on to tell you that sometimes when I’m feeling horny I don’t even want to have sex – I actually really feel like going down on him. It’s just really fun and the more I do it, the better I keep getting (which is a bit obvious from his face when I’m done). And which girl doesn’t like having that kind of power over her guy? 😉
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