I was dumped by my boyfriend a couple of months ago. We ended things on a bitter note, but I still miss him sometimes. To free myself from his memories, I did what everyone does when they go through a heartbreak - get drunk out of mind. When I was in a relationship, I barely went out with my friends (My ex was one of those controlling types of guys, yep, let’s not even get there) After he moved out from my life, I tried filling the void by chilling with my friends, smoking cigarettes back to back and drinking bottles of alcohol. Yep, I was a mess!
But then something changed inside me!
I saw a new side to me a couple of weeks ago. I was invited to a friend’s place for a party. While I was in two minds to go, the very thought of my ex being with someone new was enough fuel for me to want to wake up and makeup. I decided to go. I put on a black bandage dress, wore strappy heels and painted my pout red. My hair was left wild and messy. I was desperate to get my mojo back.
The party turned out to be epic! That night, my friends became my new family and I met someone special too. I knew that there were sparks flying when I locked eyes with a beautiful stranger. No, it wasn’t a guy, it was a quiet girl sitting in the corner. She was invited by a mutual friend, but I had no idea who she was or where she was from, but, there was something mysterious about her.
We kept making eye contact throughout the night. The weird part was that while it felt weird, it also felt nice at the same time. In the middle of all the partying and booze, I remember having a sudden emotional breakdown. Memories of my ex made me feel terrible and hollow from within. I quickly ran to the washroom and locked myself in. I was crying profusely.
I heard a knock at the door, a soft voice asked me if I was doing okay. I didn’t answer. The person kept knocking until I was forced to open the door. It was the new girl! By new girl I mean, Sukruti. She saw me in tears and quickly got into the washroom with me and locked the door.
The incidents of the night shocked me too...
I broke down and spilt my guts out to her. Yes, I just told a random stranger about my non-existent love life. She patiently heard me out, wiped my face with her hands and gave me the warmest, most comforting hug, I’ve ever received. Caught in the moment, she looked me straight in the eyes and kissed me gently on the lips. I surprised myself by kissing her back.
She slowly unzipped my dress and unhooked my bra. While fondling my breasts with one hand, she slowly slipped her other hand into my panty. Back and forth, she moved her finger. I can’t tell you how blissful the climax felt. Even my ex wasn’t as good as her! While a part of me felt so wrong while doing it, it was equally satisfying. In about 30 minutes, we were both out of the washroom. By that time, half of my friends had already passed out and the others were too drunk to make sense out of anything. This was all new for me, but we parted ways at the crack of dawn.
I don’t have her number yet, but she did send me Facebook friend request last night. I’m not sure how my friends or family would react if they learned that I’m slowly starting to develop feelings for a woman. What I’m sure of is my feelings towards her. I can’t get her out of my mind!
I’m confused right now. What should I do? Should I accept her request and ask for her number? Damn, all these thoughts are driving me insane *Sigh*