A vibrator is God’s gift to womankind! There, I said it! I’m not ashamed to admit that I love using a vibrator and it has helped me orgasm (and sometimes, relax) more times than I can even count.
Let me tell you how it all began. I wasn’t always into experimenting and sex toys. In fact, I was very shy when it came to sex up until my last year of college. In my last year of college, my best friend told me how her roommate had a vibrator and loved using it almost every day. At that time, it felt weird to even think of using a vibrator but I was intrigued. However, one drunk, frustrated night, I decided to finally go for it and ordered a vibrator for myself as well. Boy, oh boy, that decision changed my life. It took a few tries to get the use right but once I did, there was no turning back.
A year later, I met Harsh at work and fell completely and madly in love with him in no time. He was perfect for me. We got physically intimate pretty quickly too. We had sex regularly and it was amazing. I would orgasm most of the time but the times I didn’t, I really wanted my vibrator. After a few times, I started using my vibrator again. Don’t get me wrong! It wasn’t that Harsh did not satisfy me, it was just that the vibrator gave me a kind of control over my own body that was unmatched. Plus, I knew what worked for me much better than he did.
This happened for a few months, but I felt horrible that such an important part of my sexuality was hidden from the guy I loved and shared everything with. It wasn’t that I needed his agreement, after all it was my choice and my body, but I wanted him to be a part of my pleasure! It was a huge burden on my mind. I felt that this guilt was too much to bear for something that made me so happy. So one day, I decided I’d tell him about this. I hoped and prayed that he would understand.
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We were at his place one day, lying cuddled up after an amazing lovemaking session when I finally told him. ‘Listen, I need to tell you something’ I said. He opened his eyes and looked at me. I told him the full story; how I was introduced to this and how I’m hooked on to it. I did not leave out any part.
To my utter surprise, instead of reacting negatively, Harsh started laughing. I was absolutely positive that he had lost his mind. He asked me why I hadn’t told him this before. I just shrugged and said I did not find the right opportunity to. All he said after that was, ‘Get it the next time you come.’
The next time we were at his flat, I took the vibrator with me. We started making out and soon enough, he started using it on me. Oh my God, I was hooked on to this feeling! It was more erotic than using it on myself. I orgasmed within minutes and let me tell you, it was intense.
It’s been two years since that day and we’ve used a vibrator during sex almost every time we’ve had it. It helps me climax every time, even in positions I did not earlier. It has added a completely new dimension to our sex life. Let me tell you, he enjoys and loves it too. In fact, sometimes, he insists that we use it even when I think of giving it a miss. The best part is, that it hasn’t threatened his ‘masculinity’ in any way, which I was afraid of and he does not feel any less of a ‘man’. It is just a sex toy that we use to enhance our pleasure. It is our ‘dirty little secret’ that has helped keep the chemistry alive and even after almost 3 years of dating, we still cannot keep our hands off each other.
* Names changed to protect privacy.
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