Back in college, Yash was secretly every girl's dark fantasy. A bunch of them would even bunk their lectures, just to catch a glimpse of a 'shirtless Yash' playing football in the rain. One girl even took the filmy route of going down on one knee and proposing to him. However, as luck would have it, he had eyes for only one girl. That girl was me.
It's hard to believe, but I was Yash's first girlfriend. It's unfortunate that I can't say the same though. Before Yash, I dated 3 guys all of whom had the attention span of a goldfish. Yash won here! I didn't have to tell him that I'm having a sh*t day or I'm craving a pizza - The boy had telepathic powers!
Ever since he lost his virginity to me, our nights had started to feel a lot more special. With time, he'd gotten better in bed too. He knew exactly what to whisper into my ears to get me in the mood. I won't deny, but he was a fabulous kisser as well. I loved it when he planted soft kisses on my mouth and slowly made his way down.
What I did find odd was that he came up as soon as he reached my bikini line. For some weird reason, he avoided going down on me. I asked him the reason for it multiple times, but he was a pro at changing the topic. Of course, this really did start affecting me. I mean if I could do the dirty, I didn't see the reason why he couldn't do the same for me!
Believe me, I visited three different gynaecologists after that. All of them said that everything looked fine down there. I even spent hours on Google scrolling through forums looking for answers, consolation and validation. My best friend Ashna told me that men who do that are selfish douchebags. They only focus on their pleasure and are inconsiderate of their partner's desires.
I somehow couldn't think of Yash as selfish or mean. However, there still could be a side to him that I don't know much about yet. I was desperate to get to the bottom of this but lacked the courage to ask him directly. This lack of conversation started to create cracks in our relationship. I would find myself acting distant and awkward in front of Yash. There were days when I wouldn't pick up his calls or return his messages. I thought the silent treatment would get him to come around, but it didn't, his behaviour towards me remained the same.
It was only last weekend when we were partying at a friend's place that I got to know the truth. Even though I was tipsy, this question was always at the back of my mind. When Yash and I were sharing a smoke, I don't know what got into me and I poured my heart out to him.
It was embarrassing, but I just needed to get it out of my chest. He stood there with a red face. He then made a confession that put all my fears to rest. "I'm new to this, Akshita. You're the first woman I've done it with and I'm just getting the hang of things. I didn't want to make a fool of myself because of my inexperience. I was worried about what you would think of me if I didn't do a good job of satisfying you. I was scared of being dumped if I didn't get it right."
I didn't say a word. I immediately wrapped my arms around him and gave him a tight bear hug. I was relieved that all my doubts turned out to be untrue. Our relationship has grown stronger after that night. With a little bit of patience, direction and conversation, Yash is now morphing into a sex beast in bed. I tell you, orgasms haven't felt better *Wink
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