I met him when I was a teenager. In fact, I pretty much fell for him the first time I saw him! I was never one to believe in ‘love at first sight’, but it happened to me. Soon, we got into a relationship and I was ecstatic. I knew that I was in this for life. However, things didn’t go as I planned.
It didn’t take me long to discover that he was a different guy than others. He was brought up in tough situations, owing to which it took him more than 4 years for him to overcome his fears and feel attached to me. Plus, he did not know how to express his feelings, which obviously led to many upsetting moments for me during those years. Another problem was his big ego, even when he was in love, which made me think that I deserved better. This eventually led to us parting ways.
Though I got into another relationship thinking that I would be able to forget him, doing so was even harder than I had imagined. I tried really hard to move on with my new relationship but failed. Each day I missed him and would often break down in a flood of tears. The pain of being apart from him kept on increasing rather than decreasing. A year passed this same way, and by then I realised that I could never forget him, I loved him and I just couldn’t help it. I could not even say this to the guy I was dating, it was too unfair. I tried hard to hide what was inside me, but slowly he realised that I was not happy and that I still missed my past relationship. I don’t blame him for breaking up with me. I cried a lot out of guilt.
It was after a few months of being single that I was returning from work one day when I impulsively decided to meet him. I still felt the same way about him but I had no hope or expectation that he was even still single, but still, I could not stop myself and decided to see him. I reached his apartment after work. He looked so shocked to see me outside his door but I could not think of what to say or how to explain why I was there. I did the first thing that came to my mind and just hugged him, and blurted out ‘I love you’. To my surprise, he hugged me back and said ‘I love you too’. It turns out, he had been waiting for me since a year and hadn’t stopped loving me either. He tried to see other girls in last year but he could not go any further than just a meeting. That moment made me realise that we cannot be apart. He is not perfect, neither am I, but that does not matter anymore when you actually love someone.
We are going to get married soon. We still fight, he still has an ego, I still get angry and upset quickly, but now we know that we cannot live without each other and that realization makes it easier for us to accept each other the way we are.
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