Devansh and I had been seeing each other for over a year. Everything was going perfectly well in our relationship. Professionally, I was looking for a new job and had managed to find just the right one, albeit in a different city. Of course, the mere thought of not being able to see Devansh every single day was heartbreaking. We discussed things at length and mutually decided to put my career first. We felt that we could make our relationship work, despite the distance. We, therefore, decided to give long distance a shot, even though pretty much everyone we spoke to regarding this said the same thing - long distance relationships don’t work. But considering the very-much-in-love couple that we were, we thought that we’d be an exception to the rule. And so I went to a whole new city.
I was alone, in a different city, trying to make it big. I wanted to excel in my field and put in all my efforts towards shaping my career. Unfortunately, our relationship took a big toll because of that. We didn’t talk as much, and when we did, we somehow managed to convert all our conversations into fights. He kept complaining that I had no time for him, while I kept trying to explain how demanding was my new job.
Our relationship wasn’t going anywhere, and that’s when it happened. Entered Anand, my colleague who had very quickly become my confidant, my closest friend in the city. We spent a lot of time working together, and blame it on the close proximity if you want, but I found myself being increasingly attracted to this guy. He was charming as hell, and the fact that my relationship had hit rock bottom by then didn’t help.
Eight months in the new office and I found myself looking forward to a huge party celebrating a big merger in which I had an important role to play. But, Devansh and I managed to fight even that day. I was in a foul mood and told Anand that I won’t make it to the party when he called. Little did I know that he would show up on my doorstep within the next hour! He had brought food and some wine to celebrate my success, in my apartment.
We got talking and I told him all about the big fight that I had with Devansh. He wrapped his arms around me and held me close. I looked up and the way I saw him looking at me made me want to kiss him... But the moment our lips touched, I felt an intense pang of guilt and shame. I was still dating Devansh after all! I asked Anand to leave, told him that it just wasn’t right. I didn’t want to be the girl who cheated on her boyfriend.
I felt disgusted by myself. After a sleepless night, I ended up calling Devansh the next day. I admitted to everything that had happened the night before and apologized profusely. Needless to say, he was mad at me. He couldn’t believe that I could even think about cheating on him.
I hated myself for doing this to Devansh. Even though I had stopped things from getting way out of hand, I felt awful. It took some time, but our relationship survived. We started communicating more, and put in more efforts into our relationship to make it work.
And today, Devansh and I are still together and happy with each other, despite all the obstacles that come with a long distance relationship.
*Names changed to protect privacy
Published on Nov 08, 2016