Where do I even begin? Do I start by thanking you for teaching me how to love or by shunning you for breaking my heart? Actually, let me start by being completely honest. I want you to know that you are an amazing human being. I’ve seen things in your eyes that I’ve never seen in other people’s eyes. I see so much in you that you fail to see in yourself. Don’t ever forget that you are a beautiful person and people would kill to be like you. I’ve seen you touch lives and move mountains and it was a joy to have spent whatever time I had the chance to spend with you. Because more than anything else, you taught me how to love.
I know why you broke my heart too. Well, I know this in hindsight. Back then it had come as a huge blow to me. We were so happy together. At least I thought we were. I felt like life then was perfect, that it couldn’t have gotten any better than it already was. Little did I know that this was just the calm before the storm. And maybe this calm wasn’t a complete illusion for you. You told me that you were happy with me, that we could really make it work and that you too were in this for the long haul.
But with time I guess you realized what I took forever to realize - that only love is never enough to make a relationship work. You were always the smarter one though, the saner one. You always had your feet firmly planted on the ground while I was always building a million castles in the sky. You were the one who brought the balance to our relationship and you were the one who kept me rooted too because, trust me, without you, I would have been completely lost. You taught me how to not just dream my dreams but slowly and steadily turn them into tangible realities. You taught me how to cherish every part of me, all of me, no matter how flawed I was. You taught me how to question everything, to look into the deeper meaning of things that were otherwise so glaringly obvious.
And most importantly, you taught me how to love myself... To be happy with how I looked, to be content with what I had. You showed me that I was capable of achieving so many things that I never thought possible. How could I not love you then? You had shown me all that was beautiful about me and even shown me how to love all that was ugly and ignored about me. How then could I not have fallen for you?
When I think of you these days, I feel like you were sent to me so that I could learn how to love, unconditionally. And this kind of love starts from within, when one accepts themselves completely. Thank you, a million times over.
One day you just said that it wasn’t working out, I had no clue as to what was not. You left without a proper explanation and I was left to figure this one out on my own. Without your help and company it was very hard because I had become very dependant on you. It took me a while to understand what I know now.
We were happy with each other but we were too different. We weren’t right for each other. We were just two people who were brought together for a brief period of time so that we could learn from each other.
Thank you, dear friend for teaching me everything and for teaching me how to love. I hope you are happy, wherever you are.
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Published on Jun 22, 2016