The whole story started on my trip to Goa. It was my birthday and the trip was a surprise for me. I along with three other friends went on this trip and it was probably the best trip of my life.
I was in a long distance relationship with Akash for over a year. Akash was also a good friend of my friends. So, they invited him for my birthday celebrations, as well . I really expected him to show up, but he couldn’t. I was upset, very upset.
We were all on the beach and we were celebrating my birthday getting drunk. My mind was still unhappy, thinking about Akash. After partying for a bit, I went for a walk on the beach by myself. I’d been walking for a bit and that was the moment I saw Garv standing in front of me. I know that’s stupid, but seeing him at that moment did make me happy. I don’t know what was that exactly but nothing felt normal.
Garv was one of those friends who always made me feel special. Whenever I was in a bad mood, he was always there to cheer me up. I used to forget all my stress when he was around. But he was always a friend to me so I didn’t want to ruin anything for a passing thought.
But, surprisingly, my feelings didn’t fade away. I had a dream that night, that I was kissing him passionately. Next morning, when we went to the beach and coincidentally got some alone time, I told him my dream. He laughed. He was still speaking in the joking voice when he asked me to kiss him. He was not serious and I could sense it. The setting was perfect, but I somehow refrained from kissing him. But this incident just made me feel more attracted to him.
I was trying to avoid him but Garv sensed it and confronted me. I couldn’t stop myself and I told him everything I was feeling and my slight attraction. In fact, I got shocked when he told me he had some sort of feelings for me since the past few months. I had no words! I clearly knew we could not give each other a chance because I was in a relationship, already. We held hands that day and it felt different… Good different.
I decided I won’t allow myself to think about this, but I was wrong. That was my last month in that city as I was shifting to the city where my boyfriend was living. The four of us decided to stay together for a week after we got back from Goa just to spend the last few days together. We both understood, if we continued thinking about this, things would get complicated. One day, we were alone in the apartment and were just chilling together. One thing led to another and we kissed.
I kissed my best friend. It was passionate, it was intense and it was everything I’d hoped it would be. I knew I was not allowed to do this but I couldn’t stop myself. It was not love, but it happened in the moment. I don’t know what I can call it. But after two or three days, I decided that it had to stop and so, I told my boyfriend everything.
It was not easy for him to forgive and forget. But I loved him truly and I hoped and believed he would understand me. I know there is no justification for what I did, but I blame my solitude.
Somehow, Garv and I also overcame our feelings after that and decided to maintain a healthy friendship. Whatever happened, we were best friends after all and we didn’t want to lose that. I shifted the city as planned. That time was special and is saved in my heart forever.
*Names changed to protect privacy
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